It has been a long time and I have completed my Year 1 Sem 1 in uni.
Have been struggling a lot and a lot in these 4 months, I could say this is the hardest period in my life so far, never been so stressful and I almost cry every day here. I keep reminding myself that this is my choice, no matter how hard it could be, I have to make it succeeds like what I have promised to my parents. It's really not that easy and tougher than what I expected.
The very first activity in school was Hall Orientation Camp, I have been allocated to Kinja, one of the 4 OGs. The camp was fun but due to home sick and I am the only one international student in the OG, I didn't enjoy it to the max. However, I am still feeling blissful because OG's love never stop when the camp ended. Although I am always being like a phantom in the group chat and never attend any activities with them after the camp, they still sent me the welfare packs during midterm and finals and take care well of me.
After Hall Camp, I joined another orientation camp organized by Malaysian Student Association and it was really a fruitful camp. I found those friends that accompany me throughout the ups and downs and I couldn't believe how is life without them in these four months.
Study life started after all the orientation camps, but it was quite slack in the first few weeks, we can still chill in TV lounge, had HTHT sessions with OG until midnight, purposely went to hall 6 from hall 11 to celebrate birthdays. Unfortunately, happy times really fly like flash, nightmare started, we have to sit for midterms and finals, rush for assignments. When these 3 major things come continuously, we really stressed like hell.
I can still remember during one of the Critical Writing lessons, we were asked to submit our first assignment, it was an essay. My prof, she approached me before the class started and asked me did I face any difficulty while completing the essay. My tears burst out on the spot she finished her sentence because I did feel my English is so much worse than the local students and that is why I could not produce a good enough essay and did not satisfy with my own work. After that, she talked a lot to console me.
My roomie she got shocked sometimes because I cried so sudden while having dinner then she came and gave me a hug. Every time when I had any quiz or midterm and if I came back late on that day, she will WhatsApp me because she knows I might cry again if I can't score it. I couldn't ask for a better roomie than her, bought me foods every weekend when she came back from her home, bears my kinds of stuff like snoring at night when I am stress. My friends they all admire that I have such a nice roomie :)
This post marks the end of Y1SI. I really really did my best to complete the finals but I still did it so badly and I used one of the SUs in my first sem OMG. There are still a lot of obstacles in the future. Another 7 semesters, marching on!
Wednesday, 21 December 2016
Wednesday, 8 June 2016
Soon
Counting down days to stressful degree life, I always wanted to write a post about it but wait, I have to settle down all the things first. Will be back soon, very soon maybe in the end of July when I am in the hostel :) and it will be a long post to confess.
Friday, 1 January 2016
2015
Hi 2016! I can't remember all the things that happened in 2015 clearly but here are some of them :
1. I got my semester 1 and 2 results
To be honest I aimed for a 4.0 CGPA but yet i didn't achieve it, a little disappointed with myself.
2. Went to Hong Kong
Went to Hong Kong with family during my trials days. So I didn't study much for the exams but the final results was acceptable. It didn't that worse. And finally i went to Disneyland but what spoiled my mood was we unable to see the procession because of the bad weather and I must go there again one day, this is a must.
3. Done with MUET
I have no confidence with it because of my previous MUET teacher in High school, so i didn't put much hope on it but i shocked when i got the results. It's much more better and believe that this pushing me a step forward to enter the university that i want.
4. Influenced by friends to play Tower of Savors
As friends were introducing this game to Min Yi and I we started playing it and get addicted with it. By getting addict with it make us break the school rule. We even brought our phones and Ipads to school everyday in order to no wasting the energy in the game. Getting a bad card can spoiled our one - day's mood and we even unable to stop ourselves by playing it during examination week (It's like someone feels so hard to stop smoking). But now i did stop playing it because i really fed-up with my ID and I don't want myself getting crazy and sad just because of this game. It's not worth.
5. Taking responsibility to organize Form 6 farewell dinner
Form 6 farewell dinner actually should be prepared by lower six but because of our high demands, we handle it ourselves and planning everything. Min yi and I put a lot of effort on it and the dinner has been carried out smoothly and successfully. Teachers were so enjoy with it and they gave the fully support and cooperation with our theme by wearing the mask and retro-styled. We didn't expect it as well.
6. Having a second graduation in TAHA
Having a second graduation in the same school sounds a bit awkward but luckily it held in different place and for sure no more third graduation haha.
7. Finish my Form 6
Been struggling for one and the half years and finally it marks the end of form 6. Mummy had been sent to hospital during my semester 3 finals. I stayed there for taking care her so i have no much time to study. After that had my 2 repeat papers and i was regretting with the decisions for repeating because i have no mood to do revision and i answered it like alang-alang.
8. Went to Bangkok, Thailand
I just came back from Bangkok with church members. J brought us around and i feel so sorry for troubling him as we asked him to book the flight tickets and hotels in lat minute, putting him in difficulty because have to arrange 2 groups of people to 2 different hotel and picked us in airport with different time. I can see his tiredness haahaa.
9. I know you are really giving up
Thank you for these years. Knowing you give up on me makes me a little bit sad though but this is good for both of us to no wasting time on the thing that doesn't worth. Falling in love with you was a fact that you didn't know but there are many obstacles in front and it's undeniable that i did have the thought of getting together with you. Anyway, thank you and have a good starting forward.
These are the things that i can only remember, my memory are getting worse because didn't use it always in these 2 months, haha. Hoping a good new start 2016 and Happy New Year!
1. I got my semester 1 and 2 results
To be honest I aimed for a 4.0 CGPA but yet i didn't achieve it, a little disappointed with myself.
2. Went to Hong Kong
Went to Hong Kong with family during my trials days. So I didn't study much for the exams but the final results was acceptable. It didn't that worse. And finally i went to Disneyland but what spoiled my mood was we unable to see the procession because of the bad weather and I must go there again one day, this is a must.
3. Done with MUET
I have no confidence with it because of my previous MUET teacher in High school, so i didn't put much hope on it but i shocked when i got the results. It's much more better and believe that this pushing me a step forward to enter the university that i want.
4. Influenced by friends to play Tower of Savors
As friends were introducing this game to Min Yi and I we started playing it and get addicted with it. By getting addict with it make us break the school rule. We even brought our phones and Ipads to school everyday in order to no wasting the energy in the game. Getting a bad card can spoiled our one - day's mood and we even unable to stop ourselves by playing it during examination week (It's like someone feels so hard to stop smoking). But now i did stop playing it because i really fed-up with my ID and I don't want myself getting crazy and sad just because of this game. It's not worth.
5. Taking responsibility to organize Form 6 farewell dinner
Form 6 farewell dinner actually should be prepared by lower six but because of our high demands, we handle it ourselves and planning everything. Min yi and I put a lot of effort on it and the dinner has been carried out smoothly and successfully. Teachers were so enjoy with it and they gave the fully support and cooperation with our theme by wearing the mask and retro-styled. We didn't expect it as well.
6. Having a second graduation in TAHA
Having a second graduation in the same school sounds a bit awkward but luckily it held in different place and for sure no more third graduation haha.
7. Finish my Form 6
Been struggling for one and the half years and finally it marks the end of form 6. Mummy had been sent to hospital during my semester 3 finals. I stayed there for taking care her so i have no much time to study. After that had my 2 repeat papers and i was regretting with the decisions for repeating because i have no mood to do revision and i answered it like alang-alang.
8. Went to Bangkok, Thailand
I just came back from Bangkok with church members. J brought us around and i feel so sorry for troubling him as we asked him to book the flight tickets and hotels in lat minute, putting him in difficulty because have to arrange 2 groups of people to 2 different hotel and picked us in airport with different time. I can see his tiredness haahaa.
9. I know you are really giving up
Thank you for these years. Knowing you give up on me makes me a little bit sad though but this is good for both of us to no wasting time on the thing that doesn't worth. Falling in love with you was a fact that you didn't know but there are many obstacles in front and it's undeniable that i did have the thought of getting together with you. Anyway, thank you and have a good starting forward.
These are the things that i can only remember, my memory are getting worse because didn't use it always in these 2 months, haha. Hoping a good new start 2016 and Happy New Year!
Tuesday, 14 July 2015
Hiii
Hi, raya holidays started. So i plan to make a time for updating this dusty blog.
I got my semester 2 results 2 days ago, my hand was shivering when i was typing the message to check it. I was too worried about PA result as i already knew i did wrong once stepped out from exam hall last time. I predicted a worst result for PA so i won't feel that so disappointed when i get it. Received a message few minutes ago, then opened it. Well, it is better than assumption but still I no satisfied with it. What to do? went to BSN to buy pin with classmates the next day. Dad actually doesn't want me to retake but since there is still a chance, I don't want to give up a little chance that might change my overall results later. It's the highest, but still no satisfied, no satisfied, no satisfied. I able to see the disappointment from my PA teacher and yet it makes me feel so sorry to him.
It is already a half way in sem 3. I am so busy in this sem because i have to finish 3 kerja kursus, repeating the same process like : finish typing hasil perbincangan for Geography kk - pass up( and thought i can relax for 1 day but ) - Sir : go back and type latar belakang kajian for PP kk -come back from school and type- pass up - Teacher : pass up penyata masalah for econs kk tomorrow- type and pass up (thought i really can rest for 1 day) -then georaphy teacher gives us back hasil kajian for corrections before you go back home. I am repeating all these stuffs this month and still have to continue it for the next 2 months. Getting tired of typing , hahaa.
Anyway, still 4 months to end Form 6 life. It goes faster than we think, let's struggle hard for the rest 4 months. We deserve better results , woooooooooooooh!
I got my semester 2 results 2 days ago, my hand was shivering when i was typing the message to check it. I was too worried about PA result as i already knew i did wrong once stepped out from exam hall last time. I predicted a worst result for PA so i won't feel that so disappointed when i get it. Received a message few minutes ago, then opened it. Well, it is better than assumption but still I no satisfied with it. What to do? went to BSN to buy pin with classmates the next day. Dad actually doesn't want me to retake but since there is still a chance, I don't want to give up a little chance that might change my overall results later. It's the highest, but still no satisfied, no satisfied, no satisfied. I able to see the disappointment from my PA teacher and yet it makes me feel so sorry to him.
It is already a half way in sem 3. I am so busy in this sem because i have to finish 3 kerja kursus, repeating the same process like : finish typing hasil perbincangan for Geography kk - pass up( and thought i can relax for 1 day but ) - Sir : go back and type latar belakang kajian for PP kk -come back from school and type- pass up - Teacher : pass up penyata masalah for econs kk tomorrow- type and pass up (thought i really can rest for 1 day) -then georaphy teacher gives us back hasil kajian for corrections before you go back home. I am repeating all these stuffs this month and still have to continue it for the next 2 months. Getting tired of typing , hahaa.
Anyway, still 4 months to end Form 6 life. It goes faster than we think, let's struggle hard for the rest 4 months. We deserve better results , woooooooooooooh!
Wednesday, 7 January 2015
2015
Hi nineteen!
How time flies ,eighteen passed and just let it pass
So today morning i went to school for economics tuition and we got a bad news,our current economics teacher will continue her master studies start in the middle of February that's mean there will be a new teacher takes on her task to teach us and the teacher mentioned is like ......haishh , how sad /.\
2015 started , sem 2 is welcoming us. i went through our syllabus during holiday and started worrying. Anyway anyway anyway there is nothing to scare about it .
I have no idea what to type some more so stop here , bye!
So today morning i went to school for economics tuition and we got a bad news,our current economics teacher will continue her master studies start in the middle of February that's mean there will be a new teacher takes on her task to teach us and the teacher mentioned is like ......haishh , how sad /.\
2015 started , sem 2 is welcoming us. i went through our syllabus during holiday and started worrying. Anyway anyway anyway there is nothing to scare about it .
I have no idea what to type some more so stop here , bye!
Saturday, 18 October 2014
Hi
I can't sleep during this time recently ,clock shows 1:25am. I am too worry about my exams.
Counting down day by day , exam is around the corner . I always remind myself since I am choosing this path, I have no others choices so have to try my best and achieve myself target , at least 3.83 minimum, as what I have promised in front of all the form 6 teachers during audit academic weeks ago. Teachers are giving motivation every week personally , it a bit sounds like stress where it keep forcing me to study study and study . I don't wish to let them down and my parents .But sometimes I'm too lazy about it when I have a lot of homework to complete thus I skip that day revision planned.
So I try to control my tears every time I got my topical tests or small tests results,but it failed when I found my self did more and more mistakes when exams is nearer, I lost my confident especially PA, when Iooking I got only 12/25 in essay ,I felt pissed off and the tears started rolling.
Dad and mum are everything.Since mum discharged 3weeks ago my dad looks older, he has to sent mum to work every morning , take mum to hospital for blood test and check up and busy with his own works.Last Sunday , he found his fingertips and palm suddenly turned blacked and we were worrying about the heart diseases.The next day he went to pantai hospital for check up luckily there is no problem.How about mum , doctor said her strok happened in the part of memorize and this will insult her memorizing ability.so sometimes when she is nervous , she can't speak out the words that she is thinking. I worry about their health conditions , every time when I depressed with these, I cried alone in the midnight.I can't share these thoughts with my brothers because I don't want to burden them and I know they worry also.
I'm learning to be a tough girl , I know I'm strong enough to independent.
Counting down day by day , exam is around the corner . I always remind myself since I am choosing this path, I have no others choices so have to try my best and achieve myself target , at least 3.83 minimum, as what I have promised in front of all the form 6 teachers during audit academic weeks ago. Teachers are giving motivation every week personally , it a bit sounds like stress where it keep forcing me to study study and study . I don't wish to let them down and my parents .But sometimes I'm too lazy about it when I have a lot of homework to complete thus I skip that day revision planned.
So I try to control my tears every time I got my topical tests or small tests results,but it failed when I found my self did more and more mistakes when exams is nearer, I lost my confident especially PA, when Iooking I got only 12/25 in essay ,I felt pissed off and the tears started rolling.
Dad and mum are everything.Since mum discharged 3weeks ago my dad looks older, he has to sent mum to work every morning , take mum to hospital for blood test and check up and busy with his own works.Last Sunday , he found his fingertips and palm suddenly turned blacked and we were worrying about the heart diseases.The next day he went to pantai hospital for check up luckily there is no problem.How about mum , doctor said her strok happened in the part of memorize and this will insult her memorizing ability.so sometimes when she is nervous , she can't speak out the words that she is thinking. I worry about their health conditions , every time when I depressed with these, I cried alone in the midnight.I can't share these thoughts with my brothers because I don't want to burden them and I know they worry also.
I'm learning to be a tough girl , I know I'm strong enough to independent.
Friday, 19 September 2014
STPM
This one and the half months, i got a lot of things to share but whenever i opened the blogger and felt like want to update then my mind blank. Idk what to type.
I have just finished my STPM trial examinations, idk why my school put it so early .Teachers are rushing with the syllabus but since we have completed it , i have no comment. So far only got my economics subject result , although it is the highest still I am no satisfied with it. I assumed I can score higher, a higher score that will make me feel like i have really tried my best . And the other subjects , i just wish the wont make me piss off.
Yea i am having school holidays now, but still have to attend tuition class for 3 days .Friends are coming back from different places, long time we didn't chat like yesterday for almost whole day.Everybody is busying with their own matters and seldom to contact with each other.The friends who are taking STPM also looked stressful than me.Everyone really works so hard to achieve what we did aim. If you are not a STPM student maybe you cant imagine how struggled we are , it might worse than what you think.
I have just finished my STPM trial examinations, idk why my school put it so early .Teachers are rushing with the syllabus but since we have completed it , i have no comment. So far only got my economics subject result , although it is the highest still I am no satisfied with it. I assumed I can score higher, a higher score that will make me feel like i have really tried my best . And the other subjects , i just wish the wont make me piss off.
Yea i am having school holidays now, but still have to attend tuition class for 3 days .Friends are coming back from different places, long time we didn't chat like yesterday for almost whole day.Everybody is busying with their own matters and seldom to contact with each other.The friends who are taking STPM also looked stressful than me.Everyone really works so hard to achieve what we did aim. If you are not a STPM student maybe you cant imagine how struggled we are , it might worse than what you think.
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