YEAHH

It has been a long time and I have completed my Year 1 Sem 1 in uni.

Have been struggling a lot and a lot in these 4 months, I could say this is the hardest period in my life so far, never been so stressful and I almost cry every day here. I keep reminding myself that this is my choice, no matter how hard it could be, I have to make it succeeds like what I have promised to my parents. It's really not that easy and tougher than what I expected.

The very first activity in school was Hall Orientation Camp, I have been allocated to Kinja, one of the 4 OGs. The camp was fun but due to home sick and I am the only one international student in the OG, I didn't enjoy it to the max. However, I am still feeling blissful because OG's love never stop when the camp ended.  Although I am always being like a phantom in the group chat and never attend any activities with them after the camp, they still sent me the welfare packs during midterm and finals and take care well of me.

After Hall Camp, I joined another orientation camp organized by Malaysian Student Association and it was really a fruitful camp. I found those friends that accompany me throughout the ups and downs and I couldn't believe how is life without them in these four months.

Study life started after all the orientation camps, but it was quite slack in the first few weeks, we can still chill in TV lounge, had HTHT sessions with OG until midnight, purposely went to hall 6 from hall 11 to celebrate birthdays. Unfortunately, happy times really fly like flash, nightmare started, we have to sit for midterms and finals, rush for assignments. When these 3 major things come continuously, we really stressed like hell.

I can still remember during one of the Critical Writing lessons, we were asked to submit our first assignment, it was an essay. My prof, she approached me before the class started and asked me did I face any difficulty while completing the essay. My tears burst out on the spot she finished her sentence because I did feel my English is so much worse than the local students and that is why I could not produce a good enough essay and did not satisfy with my own work. After that, she talked a lot to console me.

My roomie she got shocked sometimes because I cried so sudden while having dinner then she came and gave me a hug. Every time when I had any quiz or midterm and if I came back late on that day, she will WhatsApp me because she knows I might cry again if I can't score it. I couldn't ask for a better roomie than her, bought me foods every weekend when she came back from her home, bears my kinds of stuff like snoring at night when I am stress. My friends they all admire that I have such a nice roomie :)

This post marks the end of Y1SI. I really really did my best to complete the finals but I still did it so badly and I used one of the SUs in my first sem OMG. There are still a lot of obstacles in the future. Another 7 semesters, marching on!

Soon

Counting down days to stressful degree life, I always wanted to write a post about it but wait, I have to settle down all the things first. Will be back soon, very soon maybe in the end of July when I am in the hostel :) and it will be a long post to confess.

2015

Hi 2016! I can't remember all the things that happened in 2015 clearly but here are some of them :

1. I got my semester 1 and 2 results

To be honest I aimed for a 4.0 CGPA but yet i didn't achieve it, a little disappointed with myself.

2. Went to Hong Kong

Went to Hong Kong with family during my trials days. So I didn't study much for the exams but the final results was acceptable. It didn't that worse. And finally i went to Disneyland but what spoiled my mood was we unable to see the procession because of the bad weather and I must go there again one day, this is a must.

3. Done with MUET

I have no confidence with it because of my previous MUET teacher in High school, so i didn't put much hope on it but i shocked when i got the results. It's much more better and  believe that this pushing me a step forward to enter the university that i want.

4. Influenced by friends to play Tower of Savors

As friends were introducing this game to Min Yi and I we started playing it and get addicted with it. By getting addict with it make us break the school rule. We even brought our phones and Ipads to school everyday in order to no wasting the energy in the game. Getting a bad card can spoiled our one - day's mood and we even unable to stop ourselves by playing it during examination week (It's like someone feels so hard to stop smoking). But now i did stop playing it because i really fed-up with my ID and I don't want myself getting crazy and sad just because of this game. It's not worth.

5. Taking responsibility to organize Form 6 farewell dinner

Form 6 farewell dinner actually should be prepared by lower six but because of our high demands, we handle it ourselves and planning everything. Min yi and I put a lot of effort on it and the dinner has been carried out smoothly and successfully. Teachers were so enjoy with it and they gave the fully support and cooperation with our theme by wearing the mask and retro-styled. We didn't expect it as well.

6. Having a second graduation in TAHA

Having a second graduation in the same school sounds a bit awkward but luckily it held in different place and for sure no more third graduation haha.

7. Finish my Form 6

Been struggling for one and the half years and finally it marks the end of form 6. Mummy had been sent to hospital during my semester 3 finals. I stayed there for taking care her so i have no much time to study. After that had my 2 repeat papers and i was regretting with the decisions for repeating because i have no mood to do revision and i answered it like alang-alang.

8. Went to Bangkok, Thailand

I just came back from Bangkok with church members. J brought us around and i feel so sorry for troubling him as we asked him to book the flight tickets and hotels in lat minute, putting him in difficulty because have to arrange 2 groups of people to 2 different hotel and picked us in airport with different time. I can see his tiredness haahaa.

9. I know you are really giving up

Thank you for these years. Knowing you give up on me makes me a little bit sad though but this is good for both of us to no wasting time on the thing that doesn't worth. Falling in love with you was a fact that you didn't know but there are many obstacles in front and it's undeniable that i did have the thought of getting together with you. Anyway, thank you and have a good starting forward.

These are the things that i can only remember, my memory are getting worse because didn't use it always in these 2 months, haha. Hoping a good new start 2016 and Happy New Year!